Saturday, November 1, 2008
i just came home. i was at a party earlier with göksu and her boyfriend, which was held by a couple. i thought it was a halloween party but then it turned out to be a "wow this couple is getting married in two weeks" party. the girl is 22 and the guy is 24. come to think about it, it feels weird. people getting married. people younger than me getting married. don't get me wrong i'm not considering getting married before, like, i don't know 5 years or something, but it somehow felt weird. i guess some people just find that special thing earlier. and i'm not even a relationship. anyways. we played singstar. it was fun but it would have been more fun if i could hear my own voice. still, it was a nice party. then we got outta there planning on going to other parties but we somehow found ourselves in göksu's boyfriend's flat. we ate pizza while watching an episode of "king of queens", during which göksu passed out. it was quite late so i went out to find a taxi home but i had to wait for quite a while. at some point, i thought i would have to wait there till 5 in the morning without finding a taxi to take the metro home but fortunately i did find a taxi. the driver was a very talkative egyptian guy and i didn't understand most of the things he said but i just nodded along cause i just couldn't bother. at some point he asked if i was at a halloween party and how old i was and i said i was at a party that was thrown for this couple who were about to get married and the girl was younger than me. as i was getting out of the car, he said something like "don't worry you'll get married soon". that being said, i relaxed big time :P i don't wanna get married soon though, i just want a relationship with someone who is there. i wanna have something meaningful, but wanting something doesn't mean you're gonna have it now does it? i talked to the "english guy" today. i told him i dreamt of him last night and he said he dreamt of me. he keeps saying he's gonna come over to visit me but i don't know i mean i do wanna see him but even if he does come over, which he never does, he will go back to fucking england so it won't change anything at the end of the day. pardon my weird emotional mood, it's almost 5 and i've been drinking. bye.